ENDER of This Can't be Happening...

then jon kissed me.. and then ryan found out. they fueded for a while. lol. then jon and i had a thing for a while. the whole time we had our thing.. ryan sent me all these signals.. he still loved me. and always would.

jon knew this too.. so he decided to give up.

they both loved me.. and i couldn't choose.. and it killed me. but i chose to be with neither of them.. we all were friends, with mixed feelings.. with me getting the most of them. it was depressing at many times. it was exhilarating.. and i sometimes wish it were different.

but. "you only fall in love once."      i dont know how i got all screwed in this situation... for it to happen twice.. And AT THE SAME TIME!?!?!?!   fate must hate me... i love them both. and will till i die.

*you have no idea how true this is in my life* <<<<<<<<< well.. maybe a few of you do.

ty for reading my story! i will now be startin a new one!   wayyy better than my younger-self one! ^_^ teehee.. i was lil when i started this story... as i can see from the many gramatical and spelllllliing errerz

HEHE!

thakyou allll *silly me* I LOVE YOU!!!!!